Sunday, April 28th, 2002
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3:44 am
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i thought i was finally at that point in time when i had collected all the pieces of my heart and mended them back together....... when he decided it would be fun to reach right back in and rip it out again but this time not only tearing it to tiny pieces, he spits on it too...... what sorta sick pleasure does he get from my pain?..... the world may never know.......
current mood:  depressed
current music: silence
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Sunday, April 7th, 2002
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10:45 pm
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take a ride out of the city not yet on empty singing to myself like i've done so many times cause you're not around to ride with me i'll ride the ride anyway you're not around at all and i feel sick wide awake heaven's sake i'm sunk and breaking up this time who's signing off who's had enough this time you're done and we're breaking up so don't think trust is flowing easy now is when to question the questions when i used to trust you like i trust myself and what is trust when it's not sacred and so what will you say when it's time to cut me loose from your new life don't say you lost the feeling i'll bring it
current mood: lonely
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Tuesday, May 22nd, 2001
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11:22 pm
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Im homeless......
I sleep at a college and shower at a shelter. I cant believe me dad is such a ass. He told me to find another place to live so i just left and havent been back since.
And this god damn computer wont let me type XXXX!!!!!!
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Thursday, May 10th, 2001
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4:19 pm
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I havent posted in forever my dad is an ass i dont have a computer anymore. Oh well the hair color of the month is dark pink it is pretty groovie but it is washing out already.
current mood:  dorky
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Thursday, April 5th, 2001
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8:45 am - I love things that are translated from Asian languages to English...
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For example I have little notes that say "Wonderful couple. We could make belive I love you!! and cookies that say on the package "Frozen special taste. After opening but is not eaten completely please put it in to a refrigerator. More frozen, more brittle. More frozen, more fragrant." and a pen that says "Kevin and Peggy are good friends. The always bring cheers and laughters to everyone."
current mood:  amused
current music: System of a Down - Suggestions
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3:11 am
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I saw a crime against humanity yesterday on the TV while a few actually:
Number 1: A commercial for alkaline trio but oh well almost all good bands sell out. It was bound to happen.
Number 2: Rappers and pop stars wear punk or old rock bands shirts in there videos. I saw the nsync guy wearing the crimson ghost and missy elliott or whatever her name is wearing a motorhead shirt as well other rappers wearing rolling stones and guns n' roses shirt to name a few. Although their audience doesn't recognize the shirts cause they are almost all brainless idiots.
Number 3: Homie groups wearing plaid pants in their videos. I remember back in high school being made fun of by homies for my plaid pants, but now they are all wearing them.
There are many more crimes against humanity these are the 3 that bugged me the most.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: The 4-Skins - Wonderful World
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1:42 am
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my hair is the same color as my highlighter... that makes me happy... yellow has always made me happy....
current mood:  ditzy
current music: Knapsack - Shape Of The Fear
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1:39 am
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Yeah life sucks the other day I was cooking dinner for me and my sister anyways my dad came down stairs and started screaming at me about using a metal spatula in a new frying pan then I yell at him that I don't fucking care and threw the spatula in the sink then he hit me in the back of the head and then started hitting me till I was on the floor then my sister punched him to get him to stop hitting me then he started hitting her so I threw the frying pan at the bastard then we was beating up my sister in the living room so I hit him with a broom then he came after me with the broom luckily cause I'm not a tub like him I ran fast enough to get to a phone and dial 911 anyways cause me and my sister look like punks the cops believed my dads lies and me and my sister got shit for it so I'm pissed
current mood: pissed off
current music: Ween - Booze Me Up and Get Me High
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Saturday, March 24th, 2001
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5:31 pm
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Ergh it is terrible I thought I would share about my husband he is so fucking annoying I mean he is cool and all but he wouldn't let me alone for more than 10 mins some times I'm tempted to kill him but I refrain I would regret it later I don't know what he expects from me cause he just sits there sad sometimes like I mad him sad and it bothers me but I don't like him in the way he wants me to and I don't know what to do cause he is my best friend and I don't want to ruin that.
current mood: aggravated
current music: Dashboard Confessional - Living in Your Letters
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5:24 pm
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I'm so confuse with my life but at least I'm happy now. I'm happy cause my husband it leaving on Tuesday I love him and all but I cant deal with him for long periods of time he just gets annoying yeah I hope he never reads this. Yay!! I'm happy cause Greg decided not to go to Louisiana that would of sucked especially if he got hurt or killed on the way. Yeah and my best friend is like wanting to be friends again and Anna is spending the night and I'm going to a DRI show tonight so I'm happy.
current mood:  happy
current music: AFI - God Called In Sick Today
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Tuesday, March 20th, 2001
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2:46 am
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You won't ever catch a human with a blowhole.. will you? I'm sick of those finny bastards. Dolphins are always thinking that they are smarter than us.. But answer me this. Who has opposable thumbs? Who drives cars? That's what I thought. And what's up with their dorsal fins..
What's even worse are those dolphin sympathizers. And, excuse me for being so vulgar.. but .. those dolphin lovers as well. They are betraying their own human nature by siding with the dolphins.
Now, chant with me!
Humans rule!
Dolphins can suck it!
current mood:  distressed
current music: Alkaline Trio - Sorry About That
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Tuesday, March 13th, 2001
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10:15 pm
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Hey I had the luck of the Irish yesterday.... I found a pack of cigarettes on the street and my father wasn't a bitch... I thought I would share.
current mood: grateful
current music: The Oppressed - Skinhead Girl
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10:13 pm
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Friday, March 9th, 2001
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8:01 am
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There are two types of punks: Those who get it and those who don't. Those who get it are not overly concerned with fitting in, but instead like to have fun and have new ideas. Those who don't will make fun of you because your shitty leather jacket doesn't have enough shiny bits of garbage stuck through it or you don't look like you've laying in a ditch for the last 2 days.
current mood:  numb
current music: Drowningman - How They Light Cigarettes in Prison
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Thursday, March 8th, 2001
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2:51 pm - ERGH.....
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It started out all right the normal just hanging out or whatever taking nyquil and what have you. On the way home I was a bit fucked up. Anyways so middle aged black man came up to me and basically asked if I was a prostitute and when I said no but I asked him for 70 cents so I could get on the train he said I have something you could do quick for some money. It was a very scary experience what is worse is that cop were standing there and I couldn't tell them because I was out after curfew and I was a little tipsy and the last thing I need is to be in more trouble with the police. So I got really scared but finally he left me alone. What was more strange is that I wearing a big VANDALS sweatshirt and some big steal toed boots and blue and orange pants I didn't look slutty at all.
Anyways I get home and some lights are on but the door is lock and I forgot my keys so I knock and no one answer so I ended up falling asleep on the porch. I woke up a few hours later cause I was have some funky ass dreams from the nyquil and I was freezing my ass off. Finally I found a way to break in to my house but I was too cold so it was really hard to get the screen out and climb up the air thingy. It was sad cause I was shaking and such but I finally got in to my bed. Then I couldn't sleep cause I kept having really vivid dreams and as soon as I got up I had to vomit but I hadn't really eaten anything so it was just stomach acid for the most part. I hate that. So I just had a bad night I guess you could say. If that wasn't bad enough I got yelled at for not being home but it isn't my fault no one answered the door.
current mood: distressed
current music: Mindless Self Indulgence - Masterbates
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Wednesday, March 7th, 2001
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6:18 am - The Lonely Muffin
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Once upon a time there was a corn muffin, this wasn't your ordinary corn muffin. He was horribly disfigured because he was the last muffin made in the batch so he was also smaller and harder. He always dreamed of being like the others but, he knew it would never be possible. So he sat there and cried. He watched as people bought his brothers and sisters. As the poor deformed corn muffin sat there he knew what he must do. He started viciously ripping his siblings apart for if people didn't want him then no one could want his family. The other muffins lie there dying, there were crumbs everywhere from the brutal attack. The poor little muffin sat there still no one wanted him. So he decided it was time to end it all. He jumped from his tray into the nearest garbage can. He was badly hurt by the fall and as he lie there dying he yelled: "Fuck you Baker, Learn how to make muffins better!"
current mood:  accomplished
current music: Ween - Cover It With Gas And Set It
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Tuesday, March 6th, 2001
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7:02 am
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hehe the queers are funny..... stupid fucking vegan!!
current mood:  awake
current music: The Queers - Stupid Fucking Vegan
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Monday, March 5th, 2001
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5:53 pm - Vegan Chocolate Cake
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1 1/2 cup flour
4 tbsp cocoa or carob powder
1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup dry sweetener
1 1/2 tsp vanilla extract
1 tbsp vinegar
5 tbsp oil
1 cup cold water
Preheat overn to 325. In a large bowl, stir together the flour, cocoa powder, baking powder,baking soda, and salt. Add the sweetener, vanilla, vinegar, oil, and water and miw together gently until "just mixed." Pour in to lightly oiled cake pan and bake for 45-50 minutes.Test with fork to see if done. When cooled serve.
current mood:  full
current music: Pump Action Joe - Invention
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Friday, March 2nd, 2001
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3:15 am
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Ergh slipping in to depressed mode i havent the slightest clue why. My life is going alright perhaps it is cause i sorta stopped smoking and doing all those other evil things. I really wish i knew cause i hate it and i cant do anything about it. i really need a job as well that way i can afford my cigarettes and such, so the world wont seem like the awful place it is. I'll just lull my self it to a ignorant state..... Drugs are good!
current mood:  drained
current music: Def Leppard - Poor Some Sugar on Me
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Sunday, February 25th, 2001
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12:11 am
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ergh I'm so fucking confused....
i mean what the hell...
guys are evil....
they all confuse me....
current mood:  confused
current music: Modest Mouse - What People Are Made Of
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